" The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere,

they're in each other all along."

From Essential Rumi

by Coleman Barks


Saturday, November 27, 2010

Every Day

Everyday when I open my eyes,
I hope: Maybe today will be better,
maybe I won’t miss you as much,
and my heart won’t break for the nth time.
But the days come and go
and except that you are still missing
nothing changes at all.

Eterne

Friday, November 19, 2010

no difference

I live next door to you
but I could as well live half a world away
no difference it would make:
We would miss each other just as much
I would love you same as I love you now
and you would be as distant as you are.
Nothing would change if I lived far away:
We would miss each other
as we did all our lives
before we’ve met in person
for the first time.


Eterne
September, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Dungeon


Captured in your gaze
and chained by my thoughts,
I’m thrown into cold darkness
devoided of hope
for Spring, for sunlight,
for a warm hug,
a walk in a park,
heart-to-heart conversations,
Sundays’ breakfasts in bed,
small acts of love:
you in my life


Eterne
October 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

falling asleep

Last night you were with me:
I've kissed your eyes and your lips
and cuddled close to your your chest
happy with your presence
surrounded by your scent
and the warmth of your body.
You didn’t do anything,
just murmured "sweet dreams, baby"...
But I’ve been dreaming already,
sending you my love as falling asleep
while your body was somewhere else
far away from me.
 
 
Eterne
September 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

nothing (I'm just angry)

passionately and joyfully
i used to love life
now i just want to die
i shouldn't be paying a price so high
for a few months of your secret love
i shouldn't have
with all my strength trying to forget
what i want in life the most
to what you are blind and deaf
(or if you see it, you deny it anyway)
i just shouldn't have
i shouldn't have
had taken from me my heart and soul
and my body thrown away...
it's inhumane

Eterne
07.05.2010